...San Francisco, of course. That's where I am, visiting my daughter for a few days, then some close friends.
Here I am at the Rodin sculpture garden on the Stanford campus yesterday
Just last fall I was at the Rodin Mueum in Paris so this felt very familiar. Kind of sad, remembering being there wiht Martin such a short time ago....but also nice to reecall the many wonderful trips we had together. That day, we had lunch in a small cafe near the Rodin Museum, and were seated next to an elderly French couple whose Englsh was as bad as our French. The two men concentrated on their beer. But the woman and I got to talking, or trying to talk, and she told me (in poor English) that they had a daughter in Phoneix. I saud (in horrible French) that Phoenix is very hot. She agreed. Then I told her that we lived in Boston. She said (in horrible English) that Boston is very cold, and I agreed. We both beamed at each other as if we were accomplished linguists. Actually we sounded like Lesson #1 in a 6th grade French book.
And next month I will be in Paris again, with my granddaughter. She DOES speak beautiul French so I will be careful not to humiliate her in such a way.
I have been incommunicado for a while because of Hurricane Irene, which coincided with my leaving Maine and returning to Cambridge, and a lot of stuff to do at both ends....and because I am working on creating a new website. Actually, I have a terrific website deisgner doing the hard part, but MY part is a steep learning curve for me, technomoron that I am. When it is up and running...I hope next week....the blog will move there and I assume will be easily accessible.
In the meantime, my "schedule" on the current website is not working. So for those who might be in the area, I wll be in Concord, NH, at Gibson's Bookstore at 7 PM on Monday, September 19th; the next day (9/20) at Northshire Bookstore in Manchester Center, VT, at 5:30 PM; and on 9/21 at the Flying Pig Bookstore in Shelburne, VT, at 4 PM. A wonderful time of year to be in those New Engand locations (and of course ANY time of year is a good time to be in a bookstore!)
Here is my daughter on a crocodile. Actually, a wonderful wooden carved croc from Papua New Guinea (also on the Stanford campus)
I go home Thursday and start preparing for the Pats game on Sunday. The Red Sox are disappointing me badly so I am turning my attenton to football.
Today is still bright and clear but I'll be bringing in the bird feeders tonight, preparing for the storm. One friend who was visiting left this morning instead of tomorrow, fearing she wouldn't be able to get out...and she has tickets to the US Open on Tuesday. My other guest is still here...he has a flight out late in the day Monday so shuld be okay.
We will likely lose power so are well-stocked with alternative lighting, water stored for when the pump goes off, etc. But I don't anticipate huge problems here in Maine.
I went out and picked apples...the trees are well laden this year...and then sent this photo to my brother, titled "Pie tonight"
In reply his wife sent this, titled "cake tonight"
which made me A) chuckle and B) appreciate having a family with a sense of humor. How we would get through this life without laughter???
Son Ben and his partner are at today's Red Sox game (currently 8-2, Boston ahead over Oakland). The sky over Fenway looks ominous on TV. He called me yesterday from the train en route from Portland to Boston, to alert me to the fact that the children's tent, in a distant corner of the meadow, might blow down. Well, nothing I can do about it. We'll do damage control after the thing is over.
Friends brought a 3-month old grandbaby by yesterday for me to take some photos. Here is an out-take: baby Ella, with Lulu
Just for the record, here are the 2011 hurricane names (we have Jose to look forward to next):
Arlene
Bret
Cindy
Don
Emily
Franklin
Gert
Harvey
Irene
Jose
Katia
Lee
Maria
Nate
Ophelia
Philippe
Rina
Sean
Tammy
Vince
Whitney
Yesterday I left the cat and dog both in good hands and went to Yarmouth, Maine, about 45 miles from here, to have lunch with a group of old, old friends in order to celebrate the birthday of one of them. Gorgeous day; gorgeous house on the ocean; good lunch; good conversation; a nice time all around.
Heading home, I took a different route and found myself on Shaker Road, outside of Gray, Maine, and on an impulse stopped at The Shaker Village at Sabbathday Lake. I had done a lot of research there for my book LIKE THE WILLOW TREE which is set in that village in 1918, but I hadn't been back since the book was published. I pulled in and parked and watched a group headed out for a tour with one of the volunteer guides. I had begun my research by taking that tour, and then taking it a second time a few days later (and after that had worked in the library there, using the original documents and diaries).
I stopped in the gift shop, saw that the book is for sale there, and introduced myself to the two women running the shop...also volunteers. The village has a passionate and loyal and hard-working group of supporters and volunteers.
To ny great joy they told me that they loved the book...but more importantly, that I got it right, that the details were accurate and conveyed the history and feeling of this place that they love. And: here is the good part: that little girls arrive clutching their copy of LIKE THE WILLOW TREE, and want to know just where each little incident took place. Not everything in the book is availble for the public to see, unfortunately, but I was told that one little girl wanted to see the room where Daniel, the brother of the protaganist slept...and was shown there. They can walk up the hill, as Lydia did in the book, and look down at the village; they can see the schoolhouse where she attended school, and some tours include the laundry room where she took her turn at helping with the laundry and learned (and hated) to iron. They can see where Lydia would have learned to weave, and the tiny cemetery with its single headstone SHAKERS, where some of the "real" characters in the book...including Sister Jennie, who was caretaker of the little girls, are buried.
It woud be wonderful if they could devise a special tour for the youngsters, maybe school groups, which would include the place where the young girls lived (not currently open to the public) and the dining room where Lydia disgraced herself---by not having learned the rules yet---on her first evening there. Because the few remaining Shakers still live in the building that houses that dining room, and they still have meals there, it is off limits. But maybe someday for special groups of young readers?
It is a daunting reposnsibilty to write about a real place and in a book that contains some "real" characters, people who actually lived and whose lives one wants to honor. I signed all the books they had in stock at the gift shop and came away feeling very pleased that I had stopped by and found that they are happy with the book.
The main buiding, with more than 30 rooms, once filled with a thriving community of Shakers. There are only three left.
the meeting house where they still worship. Notice two separate doors. One was for men, one for women. Having entered, they sat on separate sides of the room in the old days.
The building where the young girls were housed (notice the AC upstairs! Not there in 1918!)
The back of the girls' house, with the laundry building behind.
The weekly newspaper came out today, and my favorite section, the police blotter, included the item that a large group of geese followed the mailman down Main Street. It is unclear why the police were notified.
When I went to the PO to mail a few things, the woman ahead of me in line was receiving a very noisy package, which turned out to be a dozen baby guinea hens. Guinea chicks, I guess they would be called. Much chirping from the box, so she opened it and showed them to me and the postal lady.
Much chirping at this moment from my studio, and Alfie is beside himself, investigating. There is a chipmunk, it turns out, behind a row of books on a shelf. Maybe I should call the local police?
My last guest has gone home, after a nice lunch at Ebenezer's Pub, and with a big supply of freshly-picked blueberries. I will have to go out in the morning and pick some myself.
And here is Lulu, staring intently at a hummingbird on the other side of the screen, in the morning glories.
I worked most of the day on revisions to GIVER IV; luckily my guest, also a writer...and teacher of writing... was holed up in another room to work on student papers. We took time off for a nice lunch and then went back to our respective...what? I'd say dungeons, but I think we both love our work too much to think of it that way.
I'll get these revisions finished and off to the publisher by the time my last guests coe and go, and then I leave Maine (boo hoo) on August 30th. I have trips coming up in the fall (first one, San Francisco) and want to leave things completed and in order before I hit the road.
Oh! But before I go to SF, I will return to Maine for the evening of June 6th, to speak at the University of NE in conjunction with their art gallery's show of children's illustrators. I know, I know: I am not an illustrator. But I was available, and I can talk a bit about the general world of children's books. Info about the show and the two speakers (the other is Rich Michelson of the Michelson Galleries in Northampton, MA) can be found at http://www.une.edu/artgallery/childrensbook.cfm
So there is much to finish, much to prepare, much to look forward to. Much to look back on as well.
Much excitement...and company...over the weekend to celebrate grandson Grey's 13th birthday here at the farm. His Uncle Jon, an MD, gave him a skeleton. Now what boy wouldn't love to have that?! Bucky, as he is named, is currently sitting in a chair, legs crossed in a yoga position, in my studio.
But here he is on a rainy weekend afternoon:
(Yes, he does have some broken ribs. No, we didn't do it.)
But now the kids are gone (Bucky remains. he will live here. They are planning to put him, covered with spray-on cobwebs, perhaps chained to the wall by handcuffs, in the basement root cellar) and it is chilly and rainy, a good day for work. I have started revisions on the yet-un-named Book IV which will turn The Giver Trilogy into a Quartet.
As a distraction from work, I am playing three separate Scrabble games on my iPhone, which is here beside my laptop. I justify this by the fact that it is word-related, therefore vaguely literary and inspirational. And I am playing with three somewhat literary friends---does that make it better? Upgrade it from just mindless fun? Guess not.
Big item on this week's local police blotter: "Young girl hissed at by raccoon." Monday, on my way to the bank, a deer and fawn bounded across the road in front of my car....(no danger; I was going slowly; they continued into the woods unscathed)....so you can see that here in Maine it is a hotbed of exciting mammal activity. You would not know it by my own two, both snoozing at the moment.
My current guest....(another writer; she is in a distant room, working)....brought me on DVD three seasons of "Slings and Arrows," a show I'd never seen. So far we have watched the first two and I am hooked. Last time this sme guest visited, a year ago, she brought me "Dexter" and it was too scary for me to watch alone. But this one will suit me just fine. And I can knit or play Scrabble while watching.
Okay, back to work now. I need this done by August 25th, when new guests arrive, and after that I head back home and from there to San Francisco. So this is my uninterrupted time, these two weeks. Better make the most of them.
My daughter is in the middle of moving and she just sent me this snapshot of something she unearthed in the process. This is a collage I made from torn paper back in 1978, and it shows my daughter with her/our cat ... long dead (cat, not daughter) ... I had forgotten this cat. But my new kitten, Lulu, is almost identical. Not that it couldn't be argued that if you seen one black cat you've seen 'em all.
Here's Lulu yesterday, on a hot day, lying on her back on a wicker couch on the porch
Actually, of course, I see now that Lulu has a white beard and feet; and the earlier cat...whose name was Sebastian...was completely black.
After a hot weekend and some good company (and thanks to Betsy, who went home and emailed me a rhubarb cake recipe when she saw that I had some leftover rhubarb here. I just made it, and just tasted it Yum.) it was cloudy and cooler today, and I was at my desk all day long. I had typed page 410 when I quit for today. Each time I stop work, it is with questions in my mind...plot things...and I find that overnight I think about those things, partly subconsciously...and often the solutions to them appear in the morning.
In the past, I have found that sometimes, before going to sleep...or on waking...I willhave a thought, only to find later that I can't remember it...only that I HAD it; not a clue what it WAS. So now I have put pen and paper beside my bed and have been sometimes making notes. I live in fear that I will die in my sleep and someone will try to make sense of those notes.
One says: She is embarrassed by her feet.
LAFAYETTE, Ind. (WLFI) - Lafayette resident Lois Lowry enjoyed some much needed relief from a hot Indiana summer day on Friday. Lowry has chronic obstructive pulmonary disease and said she doesn't get out much, especially in the heat. A fan to help keep the cool air circulating was a much needed item.
"It will be more comfortable," Lowry said.
Lois was stop number one for employees from Lowe's delivering fans Friday morning. The store donated 50 fans to the Area IV Agency for Aging and Community Action Programs.
"The store itself, our store, has the ability to designate funds that are given to us, for what we consider to be a worthy cause," said Human Resources Manager Dennis Del Carlo.
That worthy cause was giving Area IV clients like Lowry a break from the hot weather.
Actually, I am in Maine, not Indiana, and the weather is lovely...sunny and in the 70's...but I'm glad to hear that my namesake, or counterpart, or doppelganger, is being taken care of.
I am SO CLOSE to the end of a very lengthy manuscript...longest I've ever written. And though certainly it will need revision—this is its first draft—it always feels good, no matter what the length of the book, to type THE END. Not good in a "whew, glad that horrible task is done" sense....but good because I can stop wrestling with plot details. Next, after typing "the end"...which I expect to do in the next week....I will print it out, close to 450 pages, I expect, and then sit down and read it: first to myself, silently; then (still to myself) aloud. That allows me to hear glaring errors or even small lapses in fluidity. Then I'll make a batch of changes, print it out again, and send it to the editor. The next round of questions and comments will come from her.
I have a friend visiting who is also working—she's a professor (yes, they do work in the summer!)—and has often visited here. Our dogs play together and she and I work in separate rooms and meet for wine and dinner. Luckily her dog, a German Shepherd named Sophie, in comfortable with cats, so Lulu is just fine with this round of company.
I got a phone call a little while ago from grandson Rhys, age 10, on his way to the airport, headed for a long weekend in Washington DC with his family. "Just checking to see how Lulu is doing," he said.
Lulu is great, I assured him.
She seems to like windowsills.
I had been thinking for a whle about getting a cat. Or more precisely: getting Alfie a cat. Alfie loves cats, (when we go to my friend Kate's house, where there are two golden retrievers, Alfie ignores the goldens and runs upstairs looking for Amelia, the 16-year-old cat) and I thought that a cat would be company for him when I have to be gone from the house...he's been missing Martin, I think.
So I had paid two visits to the Harvest Hills Animal Shelter in Fryeburg, Maine, which is a wonderful clean and happy place. But as I explained to the people there, I needed to be certain that any cat I took home would be okay with a dog. They pointed out that most of their cats are strays; they have no idea whether they are dog friendly. And no, they couldn't let me take one home for a trial, nor would they let me bring Alfie in for a private introduction. They suggested that my best bet would be to get a kitten, which would not have had time to learn to be hostile to dogs.
So yesterday I took my visiting grandsons, 12 and 10, to the shelter. I told them their task was to choose a kitten, and they should base their choice not on beauty or cuteness but on temperament. We needed a mellow, laid-back kitten; and I said a female, becaise I read someplace that females are better mousers than males. Here in the country there are always mice to deal with.
So the boys held, and talked to, and played with, a variety of kittens and then chose a 3-month-old female. On the 10-mile drive home, with small meows coming fron the carrier, we discussed names...flower names, since it is garden season. Lily? Rosie? Daisy? Lacey, for Queen-Anne's Lace? Holly, for Hollyhock? Daffodil. Lilac.
Remembering Miss Rumphius, we settled on Lupine, and began to call the kitten Lulu.
As anticpated, Alfie was thrilled and curious and fascinated, when we got Lulu home.
(The reason Lulu is looking UP in these photos is not that she was praying for heavenly deliverance from this dog...but because she was fascinated by the ceiling fan).
Late in the day, the boys left, and I was on my own with the menagerie. All went well, though I had forgtten the laments of Writer Friends with Cats who find their manuscripts interrupted by phrases like wenc194uc-1uv7632exnpew as a cat walks across the keyboard unexpectedly, something a dog never does. And I realized that a kitten is certanly a source of entertainment. Last night I was watching the Red Sox game but at the same time watching Lulu leap and twirl and dance as she tried to catch a moth.
And I even slept fine, after I adjusted to the loud purring and the occasional pouncing-on-toes.
But now it is Morning #1 of Life-with-Cat-and-Dog, and here is the first unanticipated problem. Alfie refuses to go outside. He wants to be beside Lulu at every second, and there is no way I am sending a tiny kitten into the outside rural world of hawks and owls and porcupines. Right now the two of them are curled up at my feet. One has politely and fastidiously used her litter box. The other...well, the other has done nothing since he woke up this AM except stare besottedly at his cat.
I suppose this will sort itself out after a while.
My grandsons are visiting the farm and Grey, age almost 13, has just been examining this framed collage of my life made for me by middle schoolers at the Elizabth B. David Middle School in Chester, Virginia, two years ago. I should have mentioned it back when they gave it to me! But better late than never. So I'm going to let Grey describe some of the things that he found in it:
This is Grey speaking:
Hi, so here I am in Bridgton Maine apparently describing what I see. I see a great drawing right in the SMACK middle of the collage of the Newbery award and there is fabulous artwork of some of the many amazing novels my grandmother ( A.K.A. Oma of Omar, don't ask!) has published. Also I see my uncle who sadly perished due to a mechanical error in his aircraft called the F-15 Eagle. I am named after my beloved uncle whom I was never introduced to. Also I saw a drawing with the date "1768", so I then proceded to ask Oma what it meant, and then she told me that is was when the farmhouse that I am sitting in was made.
And now this is Oma speaking, or Omar (I am named, by the boys, for Omar the Tentmaker, because I got them a tent from LL Bean's...and that is where they often sleep in the summer).
Here is Grey, with his brother Rhys, age 10
In the fall they will be in 8th and 5th grades.
Yes, that Jeff.
The word is out...someone put out a press release, I suppose....that Jeff Bridges is once again trying to get the film of THE GIVER made. He has been trying to for some years! Things in Hollywood get stalled for all sorts of reasons, most of them having to do with money. But over these past years, with The Giver floating around out there, I have gotten to know some wonderful people who genuinely care about the quality of the movies they make (or don't end up making, as happens frequently). Jeff Bridges is one.
Most people (well, I haven't done a statistical study, but this is my impression) list The Big Lebowski as their favorite JB movie. My own personal favorite is a lesser-known film called The Door in the Floor. But when Crazy Heart was released, I came close to changing my mind. I loved Crazy Heart. I wrote Jeff at the time that when I saw The Door in the Floor I related to it in many very personal ways. I could believe in the main character (played by JB) because he was a children's book writer obsessed by grief after the loss of two of his children. I had been there. I was a children's book writer who had lost a son and had to navigate that territory myself.
But then (as I told him at the time) I saw Crazy Heart and he made me believe in that character as well. And that was more of a feat, because I had never been down and out, never been a drunk, never been as desperate and lost as Bad Blake. I thought Jeff was amazing in that film (for which, of course, he deservedly won an Oscar).
Anyway: I hope he can get this project off the ground this time. He has a fine screenplay and a lot of --- oh my goodness, I never thought I'd ever get to use this phrase --- street cred. Fngers crossed for The GIver. For Jeff Bridges. Hooray for Hollywood.
No child was more passionate about reading, and books, than I was. I took books with me to summer camp. I read during meals and baths and bus rides and recess and church; and I remember remaining in the back seat of the car, reading, when the rest of my family got out to climb an observation tower on a scenic trip once. And of course I read in bed.
But never under the covers with a flashlight.
Maybe that was because my mother never forced me to stop reading and turn off the light. But also, thinking back, even if she had...where would I have found a flashlight? It wouldn't have been an easy-to-come-by item in my house. Certainly not something readily available to the kids.
But here's the thing. It seems that every other bookloving adult in the western world reports that as children they read under the covers with a flashlight.
I am thinking about that this morning because I went to a website to read an interview with a writer friend of mine, Pat Lowry Collins, (good interview, by the way: http://historicalnovelreview.blogspot.com/2011/06/interview-with-pat-lowery-collins-by.html) and after I finished reading it, as a way of not going directly back to work, I clicked on other, random interviews....and there, once again, yet one more person describes reading over the covers with a flashlight as a child.
And now I have come to a conclusion. This is an apocryphal story. I do not think all these people actually did that. I think they feel they should have, or might have, or could have, and that they should include it as part of their description-of-bookish-childhood.
But I think the actual number of people who read under the covers with a flashlight (which, incidentally, would not be easy, having to balance the covers and aim a flashight and also turn pages) is very, very few.
Sorry, folks, but I think this is a false memory.
This morning I had to drive twenty miles to Windham, Maine, because that's the nearest branch of my bank and I had to deposit a check that had been sitting around undeposited for too long. It was yet another rainy morning, kind of sad for this area of Maine which depends on beach-going, canoeing, hiking tourists for its summer income and excitement (but nice for residents like me because there was no traffic).
Radio reception here is not very good so I poked my CD buttons and listened first to the soundtrack from the Almodovar film "Talk to Her"...one of my favorites....while I drove. Then when it finished, it moved along to the second CD in the player, which was a homemade one, recorded (but later rejected in favor of a different set of songs) for Martin's memorial celebration. I had, prior to the day of that gathering, sat at my computer and put together various combinations of his favorites. (Tough to narrow it down because he had so many).
Anyway, what began to play this morning was Billie Holiday singing "I'll be Seeing You." The lyrics are very familiar to everyone over, say, 40; but here, as a reminder:
I'll be seeing you in all the old familiar places
That this heart of mine embraces all day through
In that small café, the park across the way
The children's carousel, the chestnut trees, the wishing well
I'll be seeing you in every lovely summer's day
In everything that's light and gay
I'll always think of you that way
I'll find you in the mornin' sun
And when the night is new
I'll be looking at the moon
But I'll be seeing you
Oh my. First, the haunting Holiday voice. (Martin's favorite of her best-known songs, because of its searing civil-rights message, was "Stange Fruit.") But then the lyrics, which so captured the poignance of saying goodbye to someone who has been such a part of one's life. I was literally driving past all the old familar places...the cafés, the parks, the chestnut trees (averting my eyes from McDonald's and Tru-Value).
I did not have to pull over and stop. Instead, I hummed along. But as the CD continued....through Judy Collins singing "Amazing Grace," Pete Seeger singing "Turn turn turn," Louis Armstrong's "Wonderful World", and Yo Yo Ma playing a Bach cello suite...I was awash in a mixture of sad and happy nostalgia.
It is not, however, a lovely summer day and I will not find Martin, or memories of him, in the mornin' sun because there ISN'T any. But he is there in the music.
The final collection that we used at the celebration was narrowed down (with difficulty) to only four selections: Richard Stoltzman, Judy Collins, Willie Nelson (Martin used to say, "Sing it purty, Willie"), and Louis Armstrong:
I see trees of green, red roses too
I see them bloom for me and you
And I think to myself what a wonderful world.
I see skies of blue and clouds of white
The bright blessed day, the dark sacred night
And I think to myself what a wonderful world.
The colors of the rainbow so pretty in the sky
Are also on the faces of people going by
I see friends shaking hands saying how do you do
They're really saying I love you.
I hear babies cry, I watch them grow
They'll learn much more than I'll ever know
And I think to myself what a wonderful world
Yes I think to myself what a wonderful world.
The bright blessed day. Yes. Even when it's raining.
I realize that I fall into the new category of "widow." New for me, at least; not for many of my friends: Middy, Jean, Betsy, Jane, Carmel, so many others. We women do seem to outlive our men. Once it was war that made that equation unequal. Once seafaring (hence "widow's walk") Now it is so often cancer.
But like many of today's women, I am accustomed to being independent, to traveling alone, to doing things with women friends...even when Martin was alive, he simply rolled his eyes and waved goodbye as I went off with my pals to yet one more obscure, depressing, sub-titled movie. And it was Martin who encouraged me to head to Easter Island last January without him (and Sumatra, back in 1996; and Costa Rica before that)...he had no interest in going to some of the places that facsinated me. Nor did he spend much time, just occasional weekends, in Maine. But he was always interested to hear about the movies, the trips, the Maine garden. Again and again he carried my suitcase upstairs, me trailing behind yammering, "so then we...."
Now I am in Maine once again (yesterday's sightings: oriole, cardinal, rose-breasted grosbeak, wild turkey, and two deer), this time with my friend Margaret, who returns next week to Minnesota. Other friends will come and go, as they do each summer. And I will at last turn my attention to the neglected manuscript that has been here waiting.
I have trips scheduled for fall: Idaho; Paris for a week in October (I'll be there doing things for my French publisher, but my German family will then come to Paris for a few days, so that will be fun); Kansas City for the opening of The Giver opera in January; possibly Patagonia with my friend Kay in the winter as well.
But for now it is summer.
I head back to Cambridge tomorrow, to prepare for the memorial celebration next weekend (friends coming from as far away as Minnesota, California, Florida!) but it has been a lovely few days here, with friends for dinner Thursday night...
Here is a rhubarb bread pudding which was delicious for dessert. (Dinner was baked salmon stuffed with fennel).
And my brother is with me. (Here he is):
Everyone should have a meticulous brother who likes to fix things. Martin was a great guy and a wonderful companion but not Mr. Fixit. (My friend Susan refers to such men affectionately as "Jews with Tools") Jon has busied himself at the Cambridge house and now, in Maine, he has taken on the problem of the old butcher block in the kitchen and its many years of accumulated crud. After solvents, sandpaper, elbow grease, and mineral oil:
Not to mention the new flat screen TV that son Ben and his partner Lori gave me for my birthday, installed here at the farm...Ben left me instructions for several remotes which left me whimpering. No problem, said Jon. He has now combined everything on one remote so that even I, when I am alone here, which I will be for most of this summer, will be able to find things and watch things and mute things. Or so I hope and assume.
(But could my brother recall—and sing—the words to all the old Gilbert & Sullivan operettas, the way Martin could? Nope, no way)
A friend has sent me this photo of Martin and me....
...taken at the top of a smallish mountain, not far from our Maine farm. Martin, in his younger years, had climbed many of the New England mountains, and skiied Tuckerman's Ravine, the mecca for stalwart and sturdy skiiers... But though those days had passed, he still enjoyed the outdoors and these small treks to places where we could look down on lakes and sky and beyond.
Our trips over the years had often been to places where the scenery was monumental—the African grasslands; the fjords of Norway; the blue-gray splendor of Antarctica. While I remembered Austria for the cafes and strudel mit schlag...he remembered the bright yellow fields of wild mustard. When we bought the farm in Maine I lamented briefly that it wasn't on the coast, that we couldn't watch the ocean and its changes minute to minute---but he pointed out the sky, so vast across our hilly meadow, and how it changed in the same way.
Friends and family will gather on June 12th to say our goodbyes, through some favorite readings and some rememembered anecdotes...and music, of course; Martin's life centered around music.
Then I will head to Maine and settle into some neglected work. The book that I had hoped to finish by June 1st —and couldn't, when Martin's illness intervened—will come back to life (I hope) and maybe the delay will have been good for it: a chance for some re-thinking.
This is one of favorite photos of Martin. It happened to be in central Iceland when we spent some time there a few years ago. But the geography doesn't really matter. What matters is that he was in a desolate and beautiful place, going from one place to another, all alone.
I felt that the same thing was true yesterday morning when he died. The dog was lying on the floor beside the bed. I was sitting by his side. Rain was falling on the skylight above him. He had been with children and grandchildren who came and saw him over the weekend. But then it was just the two of us in a desolate and beautiful place from which he would go on alone.
May he rest in peace.
A friend kindly sent me this photograph of my driveway in Maine. It was a long winter there, as it was everywhere in New England, and I have not been able to go to Maine since Christmas, so it is a treat to see my daffodils in bloom, such a reminder that May does follow the cruelest month, and that things are renewed again and again.
I have been mostly silent on this blog because for 18 days I have been spending hours each day in the hospital at Martin's bedside and have been wrung out by evening. Friends have stopped by again and again, bringing food and wine and conversation and sympathy and yes, even laughter , such an important commodity in tough times.
Tomorrow he will be discharged and I will take care of him myself with help from Hospice nurses and aides. It won't be easy. But if it's possible, people should be in their homes, with their famliies...and dogs! Martin is so eager to see Alfie!...as their lives come to an end. Hospitals are astonishingly noisy; privacy is a lost cause; the food sucks; and there is never a parking place. Aside from that?...well, the doctors and nursing staff are dedicated and compassionate (though overworked) and the technology is state of the art. There is much to marvel at and to be grateful for.
But now it is time to come home.
Today would have been the day that I flew to Orlando, for IRA. My thanks to those authors who are filling in for me there.
And this coming Wednesday I would have been speaking to the annual meeting of the New England Child Psychiatrists/Psychoanalysts, but I have had to cancel that appearance as well.
Instead, I am spending most of each day by Martin's hospital bed and oddly being grateful for that (mostly) uninterrupted time to sit and reminisce about some of the extraordinary adventures we have had together. I think it was at an IRA convention many years ago in Anaheim, where we found ourselves in a hotel elevator with a group of the New Orleans Saints football team...it was, we realized, like standing in a redwood forest.
It was 1985 whe we spent time in Africa, 1992 when we spent time in Antarctica, 1995 when we were in rural Japan....and when, just this week, they looked at a chest x-ray and commented on some healed rib fractures...we remembered the rafting trip down the Colorado River---who knows what year!---when he fell on some rocks, broke some ribs, and then had to continue for the remaining 3 days (of 9) thudding down the river... Ouch.
Yesterday I received these photos from rural China
These are college students; and that's their teacher, Daniel Peterson.
There is currently an Opera convention in town, and when I left the hospital late yesterday afternoon I went and had dinner with Paula Winans from the Lyric Opera of Knsas City and Jamie Andrews from Minnesota Opera Co. The opera "The GIver", by composer Susan Kander, will open in Kansas City in January, St. Paul in April.
from her website www.SusanKander.net :
Minnesota Opera and Lyric Opera of Kansas City have commissioned me to write libretto and score for a 75 minute opera adaptation of this blockbuster children's/young adult book. There is already terrific excitement in both cities for the premiers in 2012, and interest from other opera companies for further productions. The Giver, Ms. Lowry's first Newbury Medal novel, is read by nearly every middle schooler in the country and tells the story of a utopian community that turns out not to be so utopian. Ask any kid 26 or younger about The Giver and you'll get a strong response. The opera will have a chamber orchestra of 10 players and feature video projections. Both companies hope to have the funding to do workshops prior to its premier, which would be really wonderful and very unusual in the opera world.
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...just for the record, here is my (long form) Hawaiian birth certificate (and please note that I was labeled "legitimate"):
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This is the website for a broadcast of the Arbuthnot Lecture in St. Louis earlier this month. (It begins with a brief theatrical production of "The Birthday Ball.")
I have been somewhat silent recently because, sadly, of serious health problems in the family. Martin has been hospitalized since April 25th so I have been spending most days in the hospital, though it was a lovely diversion to have 10-year-old grandson Rhys with me for the weekend. In Maine his older brother was starting little League season (and a nice start, with gorgeous weather and several good strong hits) while here Rhys and I went together to an iMax movie called "Adrenaline Rush" whicb involved a lot of jumping off of cliffs (me with my eyes closed; Rhys watching enthusiastically). We also designed a board game...partly because on FRiday I had had a nice visit from sixth graders form an Orthodox school in Sharon, MA, and one of them brought a board game he had designed, to show me:
His was based on The Giver" but Rhys and I did a more general theme —one card said, "Meet Charlie Sheen. Go to Rehab"—Rehab was, of course, a space on the board, along with Zoo, Shopping Mall, Luxurious Resort, and others.
You had to be there, I guess.
It was a nice diversion from days in a hospital room and I was sorry to put him on the bus back to Maine Sunday afternoon.
I have canceled a number of coming events: IRA in Orlando for one. I'll miss being with people I had looked forward to seeing but I'm grateful that others are stepping in. Everyone has been extraordinarily helpful and kind. Martin and I are both grateful.
And Alfie loved the visit from Rhys.
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This is long. Sorry. But it's a lecture I gave last month at the University of Michigan.
A beautiful Easter Sunday here in Cambridge, with yellow tulips in bloom in my front yard. I remember childhood Easters in Pennsylvania and the frustration of having to wear a coat, covering up the new dress that I would wear to Sunday School. New clothes were a big deal then. Twice a year we would take a trip to Harrisburg---I think only about 18 miles, but it seemed a huge excursion---my sister, mother, and I, (it was a ritual that my sister and I held our breath while we drove across the bridge that crossed the Susquhanna River) and go to a big department store to get new clothes. Following the shopping we would go to the park in front of the capital building, and feed the pigeons with peanuts from a vendor with a cart. Everything seemed adventurous and exciting back in those days when kids were not overloaded with advetures and excitement.
I am always aware when I start to fall into "in my day..." tales of simpler times, and how I rolled my eyes in feigned boredom as an adolescent when my mother did the same thing. How I treasure her stories now! Some years ago, in a book called The Silent Boy, which is set in a small Pennsylvania town in the early 1900s, I used some of those childhood stories of my mother's. She was gone by the time I wrote that book (which is illustrated with old photographs, including some of her).
My mother's aunt, my Great Aunt Mary, was a photographer in the early twentieth century and left some remarkable photographs, including this one from 1910.
Happy Easter.
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I hate when I make a dumb mistake. (Well, don't we all?) This is a link to an interview I did when I was in Ann Arbor three weeks ago, and it's actually a fun interview because she went out of her way to ask not-the-usual questions. But just for the record: I referred to a poem quoted in the book A Summer to Die as being by Housman; and it's not..it's by Gerard Manley Hopkins. And I KNEW that, which is why I am irritated with myself.
A.E. Housman:
Gerard Manley Hopkins:
They don't even look alike!
I remember my children, when they were in kindergarten, learning, and then singing endlessly, a song that included the words "All the colors that we know...live up in the raaainnnboooww"
It is raining a little today and that means that the bright yellow of the forsthia is absolutely dazzling against the new spring greens in the yard.
When I was a child, my best friend and I used to walk "downtown"...about 3 blocks...on Saturdays, clutching our allowance money, to Woolworth's. We always ended up buying paper dolls. But again and again I found myself lingering by the sewing-materials department, where there was a large display of thread, all arranged by graduated colors. Coates & Clark, I think was the brand of thread. Is it truly weird that a 10-year-old child was each week tempted to spend her entire (small) allowance on spools of thread, just so she could look at the colors?
I was puttering today in one of the guest rooms of my house, and happened on this pillow:
Several years ago, I went into a yarn shop and spent my allowance on a batch of crewel yarn in all shades of reds and oranges and pinks; then, using a postcard photo of a Georgia O'Keeffe painting of a poppy, I created this pillow. It took a long time! But I remember the satsfaction of combining those wonderful colors:
I think I made this at about the time I was writing "Gathering Blue" in which the main character, Kira, is doing the same kind of colorful needlework.
I am rarely in the sewing department of a store these days. (Is there such a department anymore?) But I still linger in towel departments, entranced by the gradations of color. And if you turn me loose in a hardware store you will never find me by the screwdrivers or insecticides. No: I am always hanging out with the paint chips.
I remember loving the movie as a child..."Meet me in St. Louis"...with Judy Garland, June Allyson, and Margaret O'Brien; I'm sure there were others who were well-known names, but those are the ones I remember so fondly.
I am about to leave St. Louis today to return home, but it has been a lovely stay here, despite some very strange weather..including tornado warnings the evening of the Arbuthnot Lecture at the St. Louis County Library. So many good friends here for the occasion!
The day after the Arbuthnot evening, I spoke to an audience at the main City Library (as opposed to the County)...here they are, attentively listening to the MC tell them that no recording or photos were allowed (and at that moment I took out my cell phone and took this)
..and this other photo is at a TV station, where I was waiting for my interview time,and the weather lady was doing her thing in front of the green screen:
The startling thing about such TV interviews is their brevity...zip, you're on; zip, you're off...and sometimes, as in St. Louis two days ago, you are still sitting there while the interviewer says, "Next, a serial killer is tracked down..."
Now I have some time at home, and then off to Orlando for IRA, where I am to speak on a panel having to do with the Newbery Medal; and also at the Young Adult Literature Luncheon; then rushing home to Boston to be on time to speak at the annual meeting of Massachusetts Child Psychiatrists and Psychoanalysts. But things are winding down. Summer is coming. I say no to most invitations for summer events (meaning that I have missed some wonderful occasions) because that is when I am in Maine, when I am with family and friends, when I write, when I relax.
Now: off the the airport...a little nervously, because when I tried to check in on-line, I was told that "On-line check-in is full" ...so I am headed early to the airport, hoping they have not overbooked the only non-stop flight from St. Louis to Boston. The worst words one ever hears from an airline agent are "Sorry, but..."
This afternoon, while working on writing a speech, I decided to try to find a letter that I received probably 26 or 27 years ago. I was referring to it in the speech, and I knew I had saved it, so I went looking. I pulled open a drawer that had probably last been opened in 1995.
Here is the stuff I took out of that drawer.
I didn't find the letter. But I have now spent several hours going through what I can only title "saved stuff." And the most amazing stuff is the collection of writings from so far back that they are typed on erasable typing paper; it was painful, looking at those pages, and remembering what hard work it used to be to write! All that rolling in-and-out of paper. Correcting typos. And then revising! Forget it! It meant you had to retype the whole thing.
I found a picture book text called "Grandma's Alligator"which I think I had shown to my (now long retired) editor, and he hadn't liked it.....but I still do. Hmmpphh.
But the really interesting thing is an adult novel that I never finished. A thriller, actually. I even had written out a synopsis of each section Parts 1, 2, and 3---and I have to say that some scenes sent a chill up my spine. And I had done research of the most grisly sort! There are xeroxed pages—I remember a doctor friend got these for me from a hospital library—detailing the most minute charges to a corpse as it decays. The manuscript has a body lying undiscovered in a Maine cabin in late fall...so decompositon is relatively slow. And tension does mount!
Could I go back to it and finish it now? I still like its premise and in re-reading I think the suspense holds up and the main character is believable, sympathetic, and interesting. But the problem is, she's a photographer. A housewife and mother to 8-year-old twins, but also a very gifted and serious photographer with a darkroom connected to her house. This was written back in, oh, probably 1979-1980. A lot of scenes (a lot of suspense, actually) take place in her darkroom. There's one particularly unnerving scene when one of her children wanders (disobediently) into the darkroom and comes out holding a damp, crumpled image and says, "What's this? It's gross"..and what it is, is an extreme close-up of part of the dead body.
Anyway: you can see the problem. These days anyone with a decent digital camera can be a "photographer," a term which has little meaning anymore. The mystery and beauty of darkrrom chemistry is long gone.
So I think my book manuscript will go back into its drawer and remain unfinished.
Its title, incidentally, was/is a photographic phrase: GRAB SHOT.